I recently started running. Well, not really. I recently started jogging.
I do not go long distances, and I do not go fast.
I jog on a treadmill at the gym and here's the thing, I've always had a hard time finding my balance on treadmills. For some reason, I always feel like I am about to trip over my own feet, hit my head on the control panel (is that what it's called?), and be thrown backwards into the weight-lifting area.
I'm not a natural runner. I feel uncertain and on the treadmill, I tend to focus on that uncertainty while I run.
I also become easily distracted.
Today, I was watching Jeopardy on the TV mounted above the treadmills. The category was “Before and After,” and the answer was something along the lines of “A creepy man standing outside someone's window/Patriots quarterback.” When I read the correct response in the closed caption on the bottom of the screen, I couldn't help but laugh out loud. “Peeping Tom Brady.” That was hilarious to me, and as I lost myself a little bit in the humor, I momentarily forgot that I was on a treadmill.
I began to lose my balance a little and had to grab the rail and recenter myself. That could have ended with a head to the control panel.
Thankfully, I've not had any treadmill injuries. But the potential is there. I feel it. I feel the belt underneath my feet continuing to move at a set speed, paying no mind to how fast or slow I am going. I feel worry creep into my heart and head the longer I jog. The longer I jog, the more I begin to envision myself crashing. The more I see myself crashing, the more unsteady my steps become.
Here's the point. My treadmill situation can be likened to our walk with Jesus and our mission.
Sometimes, the path is unsteady.
Sometimes, we feel off-balance or ill-equipped.
Sometimes, we aren't sure of ourselves because we lack confidence.
Sometimes, we worry too much about the obstacles and potential dangers that we end up causing more challenges for ourselves.
Sometimes, we get distracted and lose focus of what we are doing.
But we are called to keep going.
We are called to trust in God to guide our steps. If we lose sight of our mission, we should reset, seek His word for guidance, and dig a little deeper.
If we feel like we aren't cut out for the job, we should remember that He has historically used the weak to lead the strong. If we mess up and make mistakes—and even if we face plant-- we have hope that God catches us and helps us back on our way for His glory.
If you are struggling to keep the pace or stay on track, I encourage you, keep going!
“Therefore, since we are surrounded by so great a cloud of witnesses, let us also lay aside every weight, and sin which clings so closely, and let us run with endurance the race that is set before us.” -Hebrews 12:1